The spirit of the Lord

IS most definately upon me now... It's the only explanation for my rather exuberant behaviour this evening. A few days ago I was feeling stressed, and upcoming exams weren't really helping... In fact, nothing was. I tried everything, I prayed and prayed for relief, but nothing... I was even in this mood up until last night when I went to bed upset over something which is so trivial, I can't even remember it.

Then I woke up this morning, still in a bad mood, I headed to work. I got there, did what I had to do, then left. When I got home, I phoned my sister, and we went to the crematorium. We looked in the book of remembrance, and then went to put some flowers by the tree where Mum's ashes are.

I felt a little bit relieved of some pressure after this, and went over to my sister's. As usual, there was an argument in the house, so I left, feeling even more tense than before. When I got home, I went upstairs, and sat here at the computer, where my bad mood had taken hold a few days before. That brings me to about half an hour ago.

I decided I shouldn't be feeling like that. I have so many good things in my life... Why should I focus on the few bad things, which really are only short-term? So what if I didn't revise as much as I would have liked to? I can't do anything about it.

"Don't worry about the past; you can't change it.
Don't worry about the future; you don't know much about it.
Don't worry about the present; live it."

I decided, once again, to give my all to God. This time, I'm really putting a lot of faith in him. I'm going to sing in front of people tomorrow. Now for some, that's nothing, but I really do feel like it won't be me at all. I just know I don't need to worry.

So during the past half an hour or so, I've been singing, dancing, and generally being completely mad, which has just reminded me of a chorus:

"I will dance,

I will sing,

To be mad,

For my King,

Nothing Lord is hindering,
The passion in my soul."

I'm listening to songs that two days ago were making me cry, making me feel worse. Now they have a new message, a mesage of hope, and it's an amazing message.

Jesus loves me.

Told you it was an amazing message, didn't I?

1 Peter 5:7

Cast your cares upon the Lord, for he cares about you.

That was one of the most sensible pieces of advice I was ever given, and now I'm giving it to you: Just give it to God.